42

Friday was my birthday. And I had a post in mind, about how I was turning 42 and feeling kind of awful about it. I know in theory, 42 isn't really that bad. But let me give you a little perspective from where I stand--by the time my mom was 42, I was had already been legally drinking for three years. She was also a grandmother, twice over.

So here I am, the same age, and just getting started with a baby. When I do that how-old-was-my-mom-when-she-(fill in the blank) math, it makes me feel old.

But anyway, back to why I didn't get the post up. And why I didn't get to Friday Round-up. And why I'm just now getting to the blog.

Thursday night, we GOT OUR TRAVEL CALL!!

Yeah, I can hardly believe it myself. Suddenly whining about turning 42 was pretty ridiculous because I had just given the best birthday gift ever!

The call came in the evening, and I was on day 4 of nursing the death-rattle in my chest. We had originally planned that if the call came this week we'd travel in the middle of next week to give me a little more time to get better. But our social worker in Korea will be out of town after Wednesday of next week and she really wanted to meet us. Plus, Thursday there is a holiday, so we had to speed up the plan and are getting on that big blue plane on Monday!

There's been a flurry of phone calls, last minute details, installing the car seat, buying tickets, booking hotels, that kind of stuff. I'm still sputtering and snotting all over, but I'm feeling better by the day.

It's still pretty surreal. Hard to believe that about week from now Little Man will be with us. By this time next week we'll already have met him! I'd be lying if I didn't say I wasn't a bit scared. I have a hard time wrapping my head around this whole change. I'm looking forward to it, of course, and do well with change in general, but the "idea" of change is always what makes me nervous and a bit sad.

I'm nostalgic about these wonderful years together that The Man and I have been able to concentrate on just us, and be selfish with our time and energy. I'll miss that casualness of our lives, and the spontaneity of our lifestyle. We liked being two.

But we are looking forward to being three. We are both ecstatic to think about what richness being a family will bring to our lives. We can't wait to see the world through a new pair of eyes, and being parents will help us grow in new ways. Explore new parts of ourselves that could only be accessed through this wonderful experience.

And finally, it's just a week away.

Enjoy the only link I'm putting up this week. I'll be back soon with details on the trip!

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